Hello again blogspot! I haven't typed anything here in ages. Mainly because I've been preoccupied with other things. And mainly because I'm lazy. And mainly because I never have anything to write about.
You can't really have three 'mainly' reasons, can you? Oh well. I DEFY YOU LAWS OF GRAMMAR AND GOOD ENGLISH.
I still can't think of anything to write about so I stole this thing off Shelley's blog. It's one of those 'blog a day' meme things. I never knew where people got them from. I kind of just imagine them making them up as they go along.
Here we go!
day 01| belief specific to your childhood
When I was a child, I used to believe in God. I used to worry that I wouldn't get into heaven because I wasn't baptised and because I never went to Church. I honestly used to pray every night before I went to bed, which may be hard to believe now, since I am not the slightest bit religious. Praying wasn't an all out show, just me lying in my bed, hands clasped together and just thinking. I always imagined God sitting in the sky, peering down at me from the clouds and listening to me, kind of like Mufasa from the Lion King. I had conversations with Him. We just chilled out and I'd tell Him about my day, or the kids at school, or to protect me from some insurmountable evil that didn't exist, but I could just feel, in the form of boogey men and monsters.
I was always very polite when I prayed. I asked for things with 'please' and ended my prayers with 'thank you'. Still, despite my self imposed formality, praying for me was like talking to a friend. I guess thats why religion is so much easier to believe when you're a child. God wasn't this threatening force, who sets a million rules before you're allowed to enter Heaven. As a kid, I was pretty much guaranteed entry into heaven. Isn't it in the Bible somewhere? So I could just believe in Him, without the fear of punishment for something bad I did.
As a kid, God to me was a television grand-dad. I never really knew my grandparents well, as they didn't speak english. So to me, God was this cheery old man who was a blanket, protecting me and loving me regardless of what I did.
I don't believe in God anymore. Its not that I don't want to, its just because I can't. I feel silly praying these days, because I know they're just thoughts in my head I know no one else will hear hear. I am old enough to live without the protection of a security blanket. I know my praying hasn't really made a difference to anything. In a sad way, I feel I've outgrown God.
On a lighter note, I also used to believe that if I didn't run from the room when I pulled the plug from the bath, I would be sucked into the drain hole along with the bath water.
I still don't like the sound of draining water xD
And here are the rest of the questions so I don't forget : D
day 02| how you feel about god and religion
day 03| five concerts you wish you attended
day 04| four moments that changed your life
day 05| something that makes you smile
day 06| someone who makes you really happy
day 07| something that turns you on
day 08| favourite fruit
day 09| something you’re looking forward to
day 10| something you want to improve in your life
day 11| a non-academic book you plan to read in the next month
day 12| favourite article of clothing
day 13| a song to describe the weather or your current mood
day 14| favourite book you’ve read academically
day 15| a movie that makes you cry
day 16| something you’ve been putting off— and do it
day 17| a question you hate to be asked
day 18| describe a daily ritual
day 19| ten things you love about your body
day 20| pick something indulgent and treat yourself
day 21| describe your sleeping arrangements: bedding, stuffed animals, whatever
day 22| catharsis time— let something or someone go
day 23| something irrational that you think or do
day 24| pick an album and do nothing but listen to it- no multitasking allowed.
day 25| tell someone something you wouldn’t ordinarily share
day 26| put something in every single formspring on your dashboard
day 27| bake something and share it
day 28| call a grandparent or relative that isn’t expecting your voice
day 29| write a haiku or make a friendship bracelet or start a creative endeavor
day 30| reward yourself with something frivolous.
day 31| jump on a bandwagon just for today
day 32| photo of yourself at least ten years ago
day 33| list three things you want out of life that you are currently working towards
day 34| most current photo not taken on webcam (play around and dress up if you want!)
day 35| photo of your favorite body part
day 36| photo of one of your scars
day 37| take a flattering photo focusing on something you don’t feel is flattering.
day 38| list five things you’ve lost and wonder where they might be
day 39| most stimulating thing you’ve learned this week
day 40| a question about the world that you can’t figure out
day 41| favourite word
day 42| describe your best friend (or friends)
day 43| if you could tell your seven year old self anything, what would it be?
day 44| kill, bang, marry, chill of your choice
day 45| have you any superstitions?
